Hello Classmates and Dr. Arguilar,
When I practiced the Loving Kindness exercise I was able to let go of some anger that I had been feeling towards an acquaintance of mine. I am constantly feeling surrounded by love and kindness from my friends and family, so I thought that it would be a good idea for me to think of someone who I do not have a good relationship with. I think that if I am able to push forward with this exercise perhaps I would be able to let go of the anger I hold towards this person. When I was repeating the phrases I tried to keep this individual in the back of my mind. After spending about ten minutes repeating these phrases I actually was able to feel my anger towards this person lesson. This person has made some very bad choices and at this point I feel sad for him. I want him to be a better person, so I will try to send him healing thoughts.
When I did the assessment I discovered that I simply want to feel more spiritually connected. I have really struggled through this class. The exercises have been very difficult for me, although it was much easier this week. I feel so overwhelmed at times with how much I have to do (school, work, and life), but I think that if I were to master the meditation exercises from this class that I would be in a better place spiritually.
I would like to continue to practice meditation. I will try to use my husband as a mentor because he seems to enjoy meditation a lot. He has been meditating for about six months now, and he is definitely that calmest and happiest that I have seen him in years. He has struggled with anxiety in the past and had even tried medication to control it. Now he has little to no anxiety, and when he does become anxious he uses meditation as a way to end those feelings.
I look forward to putting some more effort into this aspect of my life.
Thanks for reading,
Kaitlin
I understand how you feel I am feeling overwhelemed as well. Feels like I can never get ahead. This class has an especially large workload. Meditation helps - be gentle with yourself and give yourself a chance to learn how to do it.
ReplyDeleteBest of luck Monique Jackson
Very interesting post, as I was in a similar situation, I should have tried what you did,I guess I am still mad. It is great that your able to lessen your anger, and that is amazing about your husband :) have a great day
ReplyDeleteKaitlin,
ReplyDeleteI think it was great of you to work on your feelings toward this person. It takes a person with a lot of integrity to want to do this, let alone pull it off. I think this is one of the biggest struggles - attempting to feel anything but contempt towards a specific enemy. I'm glad that these exercises are helpful to us and that we are benefiting and growing as a person through the experience.
Stacey Falke
Hi Kaitlin,
ReplyDeleteI really liked your idea about concentrating on someone who you do not have a good relationship with. I wish I would have thought of that because I do know a few people I could have concentrated on. I am like you, I am having a hard time with the exercises; too much chatter in my mind that I cannot turn off! I am glad to see that meditation is having a positive affect on your husband! Good luck in the next unit.
Maria Alberto